week: 9 clean

so clean, what does that mean?

more importantly what does that mean to me?

i have going through all of this before and undoubtably will do so again. i will invest myself in someone's life and let them into mine.

but afterwards, when its over, there is the shadow, the echo of that person left, and its easy to see that as a stain in that frame of mind.

for me it has always been difficult (with few exceptions) to be able to...

assimilate...

yeah that, my exes into my life, ive always kind of just deleted them from my life as best i can, could.

so clean, catharsis, fire. i guess thats what i was going with the stripping away of the past the pain, the loss, of what i had and what i gave away.

i know that the two pieces are basically the same, but i couldnt choose between the two.

topic #12: fragility

topic #12: fragility

http://www.artwordsclan.blogspot.com/

best laid plans and all that,

as ive gotten older ive found myself thinking about the future, not just letting it happen like i did when i was younger, dealing as it happened.

but then i met someone, and i started to make plans, made goals, saw a path ahead.

ive never been so commited to that idea.

and ive discovered that plans, that paths, like ideas are fragile, that anything, especially things you never saw coming can end it all.

this is fragility

week 8: opposites

so opposites,

how does this relate to me, what does it mean to me.

i wanted us, she didnt.
shes happier, im not
shes having no trouble moving on, for me its a bit more difficult.

shes with another person right from the end...

...im lost, alone, and have no idea where to go.

i havent been able to sleep and ive been sick lately. im sorry for the modd the complaining but im really having trouble with this.

so i hope you enjoy my "opposites".

edit:

i had done another, less judgemental (?), an "oh well, thats life" sort of drawing, and so i thought that id be fair and post it too...


not that its deserved, and that it was true, but not in the way i thought.

oh well.

i decided not to color it, to leave it in black and white/greyscale because of all the shades in between two side of the spectrum.

that and i cant be bothered to turn on the wacom tablet

this week in inspire me thursday: child's play

http://www.inspiremethursday.com/


i thought about this one for a bit, tried kids drawing and having fun, tried doing something easy, then i thought about how i would play connect four at work, or occaisionally at a bar (of all places)

then i remembered a drawing i did awhile ago, years actually


years before i came to the city for school, im tinking circa 1999-2000, it was a redraw of a thing i did in 97' which i cant find at the moment. looking at this makes me what to update it again.

edit:

just another one i was thinking about, go fish.

vice

this was originally a sketch i did for a comic cover, i never got around to drawing it (or the comic for that matter). the other night i got to thinking about the drawing and figured id finally sit down and pound it out.

i thought it turned out pretty cool so here it is, for you all to see.

topic #11 censor

hopefully more in the spirit of the themes of http://www.artwordsclan.blogspot.com/

a project i did on the topic of censor.

ist a bit of a different style than ive been doing but hey, there you go.

hope you enjoy

backlog: cake

inspired by an ex who loved cake, she'd always eat too much and then complain of a belly ache...

go figure.

there's another concept i just whipped up while smoking but im too tired to refine, scan and faff with it.

maybe tomorrow.

oh there was text with both of these:

#1: no cake was safe with you around.

and

#2: cake for dinner... and dessert

week 7: sacrifice

this one is kinda personal, had more obvious concepts which i will probably finish soon.

its done in silver ink on black card stock, i know that i could have inverted the coloers in ps but it was fun working with new mediums. i was going to write on it as well but ran out of room.

it would have said:

she wasn't happy anymore, so i let her go without a fight.

or something along those lines.

i knew that she would never be happy, i couldn't do it, so i let go, and it hurt... alot.

and she seemed to be be none the worse for it.

i think i did it on black paper because its how i felt at that moment, like all the air was sucked out of the room and everything was turned upside down, inverted.


its been awhile and it hurts less and less everyday.

sorry for the sappy post.

not an illo but...

i decided to sit down and do me some sculpting, it was fun and relaxing and now i have a 3d version of, well the "guy".

anyway its been awhile since ive done someting like thisso it was a nice change of pace, still need some work on the the painting, but other than that im pretty happy with it.

backlog: more tea anyone?

one of the tea concepts i was working with.





oh, and here's another.

similiar to each other but i kinda like 'em.

backlog: whisper

this was inspired by http://www.artwordsclan.blogspot.com/

the word was whisper.

i thought of this.

wind, barely heard words and the dead.

whispers can be alot like memories.

artword: topic #10: gesture

this is for http://artwordsclan.blogspot.com/

was going to do minimalist but didnt produce anything i was really happy with. i was thinking about the word gesture, sometimes when i get stuck ill hit a dictionary and brainstrom from there, and i was thinking of what gesture means to me right now.

if it was two years ago it would have been something else, if it was year or two months ago it would have been something else.

right now i think it means that the smallest of gestures can make the biggest of differences.

there is/was text on the psd format version but i left it out for the presentation.

sometimes its the little things that makes all the difference...

anyway, i think this is kinda one of the more "positive" pieces ive done so far for 52 fridays.

backlog: body parts

inspire me thursdays topic was bodyparts and i drew a few pages of them over the last week and a half or so, i thought that id post some of what i came up with



i thought that this arrangement was nice, not as big a fan of the second one, i wish i had thought about it at the time and did another mouth pose... oh well maybe if i find the time someday.



and this is one of the original pages i was sketching one, it was red ink on notebook paper.

week 6: skyline

okay so ive done a million of these sketches and they pretty much came out the same. still i didnt feel like i had it down until last night. i was feeling kinda down so i went out to a movie and then hit a bar and sketched some stuff on napkins. this was one of them, i threw it ino photoshop, had some fun and ended up with this.




this one is kinda a stretch, and is kind of a inside thing. awhile ago i had been too busy to recycle the beer and soda cans that had slowly accumulated on my desk, yes i realize how that sounds, anyway my then-girlfriend saw it and laughed that i was constructing an aluminum city. in shame i grabbed a trash bag and dumped them in the recycling bin downstairs. anyway it was a memory that popped into my head and i thought that id sketch it out.

enjoy!


edit: rough on napkin.



edit a different take:

per request, a rural scene.



inspired by fond memories of summers where i grew up.


edit: cleaned up earlier attempt, along the lines of the first sketch.

backlog: tea

this is an attempt to build up the content and to keep my mind off my life, today was a hard one and id rather not dwell on it anymore, so art time for me!

i have several other sketches that i plan scanning soon relating to tea, so come back and check them out.

week 5: sticky

okay, ive been struggling a bit with this one, ive done many a sketch for this topic, ive done glue/pate, gum, even a stick(s) in the shape of an "E".

ive been away from the city the last few days and my set up (art and computer etc) have beeen un available to me, hence the time its taken to get this up. at anyrate i was up one night sketching in the old sketchbook (as opposed to the bathroom wall for once) and i got to think how i know so many people (read: myself) are stuck to the past and how it keeps them or at least hinders them from moving on.

so i drew a smoking person, with tar like ties oozing off of him tying him to the things that have him hung up.

anyway, i hope you all enjoy...