kiss

a kiss in passing.

just a random memory i had of a few years ago, i was with a girl at the time that would, at times, be emotionally distant. we had just gotten her tattoos finished and i said okay so what do you want now?

she smiled, pulled me close, kissed me, and said ive got everything that i want.

it was a good time.

week 42: i spy v2

this is an amalgam of experiences ive had.

its always a kick in the gut to see an ex with an new partner.

week 42: i spy

i spy:

my breath

in my room.

how can it be colder in my room than it is outside?

eye of the tiger: a random comic

just something random that popped into my head yesterday. it was a really odd moment that you might have had to be there at the time for it to be as funny as i think it is.

but then youd have been there and that would have been really awkward.

week 41: total

theres this great chinese place down the street from where i live, great in that it doesnt make me violently ill every time i eat there.

every time i go there, i order the same thing, and everytime the total is different.

and the recipt is always in chinese, and i dont speak or read a word of it.

so i smile and pay, and they smile and take my money, and i wonder why the hell i keep coming back.

and the i realize that im not throwing up.

(update: i no longer go to this place, as the last time i went, i was with my mother who was down for a visit. upon returning from the bathroom she informed me that there wasnt any soap at the communal restroom sink... for anyone who lives in san francisco, id advise that you avoid eating at joe's chinese food on ocean avenue.)

sfg: before and after

before and after.

the difference a few minutes can make.

from a coffee shop and the end of something, to a bar down down the street and the begining of... well im not sure, something else.

ifn: everything you wanted you know about sex but were afraid to ask

sex is funny,

i totally agree with kevin smith on his statement in dogma that sex was a joke god played one us.
when you think about it some of the things that people do are, well lets just say that i know couples who wont share a soda but are willing to do... well you know.


p.s. mom im still a virgin, i swear!

studio friday: hope

for studio friday

every morning i wake up and lay in bed, waiting for my roomate to finish his shower and as i lay there i hope that the day wont suck as much as the one before.

this serves no purpose

i honestly have no idea how this happend, i never draw stuff like this...

not

ever.

oh well

Topic 44: Paper

paper.

i was thinking about how much of myself ive put onto paper in my life, each blank page filled with parts of me.

that and how i love buying new sketchbooks, the thrill of a new start, new possibilities, wondering what im going to fill it with. and then, go back to ones that ive filled years ago and read what i wrote and look at the art and remember things that i had been going through at the time.

week 40: wired

i feel as if i should apoligize in advance, im sorry that this one is, well so self-indulgant. but its where i am right now.

the following will likely sound alot worse than it is, especially out of context, but here it goes.

i was asked the other day if i thought i was mentally ill.

i responded that i dint think that i was.

and later, afterwards i thought about it and i came to the conclusion that while not mentally ill, im probably not mentally well.

and id like to think that there is a difference.

topic 43: passage

passage:

right now im hearing stevie nicks singing landslide, green day and good riddance, andy and concrete blonde singing tomorrow wendy... and vitiman c with graduation (friends forever).

im kidding with the last one...

but seriously.

this prompt is one of those few that dovetail so well with whats going on in my life.

i was cleaning the other day and found some old writings and photos. the pics were from the late ninties and early oughts.

in the ones depicted i was 19 and 22.

my mother has this saying:

time passes wether you make good use of it or not... so you might as well make good use of it.

i hadnt, i didnt for awhile after highschool, i just drifted from 97 to 01 and then finally got my act together.

and i did well despite blow after blow.
for the longest time i let the fear of the future hold me back, and the i finally made a decision to make a plan, to choose a path, and it was, well, a mistake.

it failed.

ive never been good with change or the unknown, and so i fell apart again/

and i let time pass despite some feeble attempts to hold my life together.

and then i remembered something i paraphrased once...

... that life invariabily bears its own cost, and that it is up to each and every one of us to make sure that we live in such a matter that it is worth the price.

week 39: hide

i wish i could find the notebook that inspired this post...


i was sitting in a bar back in 1999, maybe 2000, and wrote as i saw
people from (a few years younger) highschool walk through the door
and thought: my god i am running out of places to hide.

hide from my past.

anyway...

Maybe I didnt like to hear
But I still cant believe speed racer is dead
So then I thought Id make some plans
But fire thought shed really rather be water instead

And peggy got a message for me
From jesus
And Ive heard every word that you have said
And I know I have been driven like the snow

This is cooling
Faster than I can
This is cooling
Faster than I can

But do I hate what she is
But do I want to be her
And dont we love something fresh
Anything new, virgin

Woman you got too many brambles
Hiding under these bushes
Woman you got too many brambles
But I always liked a good storm
Im always good for a storm

So then love walked up to like
And said I know that you dont like me much
Lets go for a ride
This ocean is wrapped around that pineapple tree

And is your place in heaven
Worth giving up these kisses
These, these kisses

And peggy got a message for me
From jesus
And Ive heard every word that you have said
And I know I have been driven like the snow, but

This is cooling
Faster than I can
Hey yes, faster than I can
Hey, this is cooling
This is cooling

more robot love

the lighting kinda sucks but whatever

ROBOT!!!!

it... lives!!!