that moment

that moment when it finally all comes crashing down, where you realize what has happened, that moment didnt really happen for me until two months had gone by.

i cant remember why, i was probably doing something that i had done with her, oh yeah i went to the book store, and i realized that i wouldnt ever read stories with her and her daughter in the childrens section again.

and on the bus hope it all hit. and all i could think was "crap, i think my heart just broke."