topic 43: passage

passage:

right now im hearing stevie nicks singing landslide, green day and good riddance, andy and concrete blonde singing tomorrow wendy... and vitiman c with graduation (friends forever).

im kidding with the last one...

but seriously.

this prompt is one of those few that dovetail so well with whats going on in my life.

i was cleaning the other day and found some old writings and photos. the pics were from the late ninties and early oughts.

in the ones depicted i was 19 and 22.

my mother has this saying:

time passes wether you make good use of it or not... so you might as well make good use of it.

i hadnt, i didnt for awhile after highschool, i just drifted from 97 to 01 and then finally got my act together.

and i did well despite blow after blow.
for the longest time i let the fear of the future hold me back, and the i finally made a decision to make a plan, to choose a path, and it was, well, a mistake.

it failed.

ive never been good with change or the unknown, and so i fell apart again/

and i let time pass despite some feeble attempts to hold my life together.

and then i remembered something i paraphrased once...

... that life invariabily bears its own cost, and that it is up to each and every one of us to make sure that we live in such a matter that it is worth the price.