topic 21: miniature
this one came to me pretty quick. its inspired by the mini-comic i never got around to drawing.
it came from this:
i look at my fingernails and realize that ive bitten them until theyve bled.
she says, "were redefining the nature of our relationship."
i say, "like getting engaged, only opposite."
she says, "engagements are usually happy things."
ideally, but thats not really the point.
i ask if there is any hope, any chance, down the line, in the future.
i regret this immeaditly.
she says, "not for it to be like it was."
through the tears i ask her to drive me home.
she says i dont have to go.
and i say, "yes, i do."
i light another cigarette - i am that cigarette, i realize how much we have in common.
and then she says, "i have beer."
i am so angry with her, feeling the need to bribe me to stay, to prolong this ...
but i am also sober and in pain.
between gulps of beer i regret having come up for the weekend.
okay so the thing that made me think of this is that the beer she had was a six pack or these mini coronas that were like 8oz. it just further added to the surreal nature of the night, this long awkward, painfull thing that i was going through, and the both of us drinking these little bottles of beer.
one hell of a night
at 10:45 PM