week 18: quiet
i was sitting in the coffee shop, a bad conversation was coming to an end, among everything else that was running through my head was 'another coffee shop ruined for me'. another was that the noise in my head was matched by the beating of my heart and the background din.
there was so much that i wanted to say, it all tried to come out at once and got stuck in my mouth, so i didnt say anything.
i got up, left and threw the coffee i had bought in the trash and walked a block down to the bar where i chain smoked, had a few beers and did crossword puzzles trying not to fall apart.
at 11:54 PM