this one resonates on almost every level and in different ways.
here i am, back where i started five years ago, and wondering how the hell it is that i have come back to this. why i made decisions that have ultimately led me to waste/spend five years of my life and have nothing to show for it but more loss and debt than i had when i left.
i feel like, in some ways, ive failed.
i always knew deep down that i would come back, but really had hoped that it would be a triumphant return rather than the situation that i find myself.
and that the thing, i really was set up for success, and i managed to mess that up.
anyway.
anyway.
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I don't know the story, or where you are, but that looks like the fence by my place in Cameron Park. It makes me smile.
i heard this great concept once when I was feeling very low.
It's about how we feel like we're going in circles and we're back where we started. But in reality, we're not moving in circles, but it's more like climbing a circular staircase. When you're only looking at the one dimension, it seems like nothing has changed, but really, you're a couple flights higher than you were before.
and every decision that you're making (whether or not you think it's a good one) is all a part of the climb. And maybe you needed to make a mistake because you needed to learn from it.
that was like a pep talk for me. Was it good for you, too? ha
:)
Damn Patrick, you can't leave already... Just when we were starting to hang out too.
Well, you will be missed.
And every ending is a new beginning and all that crap...
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