another shot at beneath

took some time tonight to make an effort to think about my life.

this is something i generally try to avoid, at least on some level.

i initially didn't really ever need to shave on what anyone could consider anything that might look like a regular basis.

i can still only barely grow a beard.

and i have found myself in the position of not being in any sort of situation requiring me to shave on a daily basis.

you would think that shaving would require more than your full attention being that you are passing a razor against your jugular but its funny how life doesn't always work that way.

so i stood there

in front of a mirror

and i shaved

and spent that time thinking about my life.

and that I'm buried

beneath

heartache
betrayal
debt
folly
loneliness
oh, and
failure.

etc...

etc...

etc...

... ad naseum.

anyway.

this had been rattling around my brain lately.

josh radin - winter
 
I should know who I am by now

I walk the record stands somehow
Thinking of winter.

Your name is the splinter inside me

While I wait

And I remember the sound
Of your November downtown

And I remember the truth

A warm December with you

But I don't have to make this mistake

And I don't have to stay this way

If only I would wake
The walk has all been cleared by now
Your voice is all I hear somehow

Calling out winter

Your voice is the splinter inside me

While I wait

And I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth

A warm December with you

But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to stay this way
If only I would wait wake.

I could have lost myself in rough blue waters in your eyes
And I miss you still.

I remember the sound.

Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you

But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to stay this way
If only I would wait wake.