ive been drawing a lot of circles lately. and angels, devils and bottles of hooch.
i wish i had a better story for this one, or not. i am in between feelings right now if that makes any sense, i feel so very lonely and the thought of company makes me shudder, i laugh and cry at the drop of a hat. everything feels so, so real.
sleep has been elusive, im not complaining, honest.
the dr said that this is normal, that the anxiety will pass and my brain will eventually come to terms with not being... altered, and that those moments where everything seems upside down and backwards will all straighten out after a deep breath.
its been a rough month, facing all the stuff i have been running or avoiding for so many years.
its been worth it.